Wearing: DAYDREAMER tee | PARKER SMITH jeans | ANDRE ASSOUS slides
URBAN OUTFITTERS scarf | MEJURI necklaces
Have you ever heard of being an extroverted introvert? If you haven’t, let me explain. An extroverted introvert is someone who can be social, but doesn’t always want to be social. Case in point: myself. I’ve always been a homebody and a loner, but by choice for the most part. I was just typing out that it’s not because I hate people… but I immediately backspaced that. You see, I do kind of, sort of, hate people. Not in a bigoted, rash sort of way, but in a common sense, people do actually kind of suck sort of way. My personality type just has a pretty strong radar for bullshit built in, and that usually leads to an overwhelming feeling of wanting to be alone with my thoughts once I’ve reached my social limit for the day, week, or month. My tolerance varies.
I guess this might be off-putting to some, but I think this is how a lot of people feel and they don’t know how to express it. If you’re an actual extrovert, I’m jealous of your ability to be in the moment and ALWAYS enjoy the party or being the center of attention. I just know that’s not me, and I don’t want to have to apologize for it anymore. Sometimes, I’d rather just sit in my living room listening to my records or a podcast or being on my computer writing. Sometimes, I just want to say no to your invite without giving a long explanation about why. Sometimes, I wish I didn’t always have to say sometimes when I mean most of the time.
I know I’m not the first and last person to have these feelings, so maybe this will be my little drop in the bucket toward people being real with how they’re feeling. Get friends that love going out equally as much as they do sitting in the quiet. Turn your phone to Do Not Disturb and tell your mom you’ll give her a call when you’re mentally ready for it. And, most importantly, stop apologizing for wanting to be alone. How else are you supposed to fall in love with yourself?
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